Inadequate me..

I'm going for piano studio practice this evening at 7.30pm, and i dread going for it. I think everytime i have my hands on the piano, I think i just can't pass my grade 8. I'm left with 3 weeks and I'm barely halfway there. How to pass? Beats me. If i fail this year, I'm gonna have to retake. A waste of my parents money. My parents have to pay around 5k per year for my exams and I think failing is a super let down. I've taken piano exams for so many years I think this is one year that i have so much confident in failing.

*eeks tml is the actual recording for studio interview* ahhh.

Not to mention my electric guitar, don't know why I'm just afraid of playing! Music is taking a toll on me recently.

*attempts to sing "breakaway"*