Sad case (Thank God it's over)

Haiz, sometimes I dunno what I do.

I wonder,
was it the equipment carrying?
was it not enough committment?
did i do enough work as a producer?
do i finish work fast enough?
was it making comments?

or is it stress?

It's quite a dramatic 21st.
I felt angry and sad because of the way I'm treated this few days, I wondered if i 'deserved' to be treated after all that i did for project (I dunno if its enough) and all that disagreeing to peoples' gossips and trying to resolve unhappiness.

Like they always say that when you hit a nail to the wood, even if you furnish it with paint, the nail print will still be there.

However good that things changed today and turn around, but still abit sad that things have to go the bad and roundabout way. I guess I have to deal with my own heart.

Thank God that things are over already and i feel so much better.